mixed feeling

The past of me.

Everything changed since time kept moving without any reason.

I could feel that i am not longer myself.

As i grown up with age.

I am lost.

Every person did mistake before.

and they maybe felt regret with the dicision which made by them.

Will they tried to rescue the past?

I am a pessimism.

every time i feel sad and down.

i love to stay alone and hide myself in a lonely place.

Sometimes..

i used to be alone.

although i could felt lonely when having a meal or walk alone.

there are good expriences for me to be mature.

I started to write dairy as to record what i did in my life.

The destiny is still far away.

I have to reach there with effort and patient.

Walk with firm and steady is the only way.

Wipe the tears.I will be alright.

It is Hurt

Wednesday was coming in a unconscious situation.

I slept until 10 am something and did all my house-hold with slow motion

Yawn....

It was so sleepy....

Today is a unlucky day for me.

I fried some fish cutlet which given by my Doctor.

Decided to give them on the next day.

Suddenly,I was spattering by the cooking oil.

It is so hurt.

I soaked my hand in cold water and applied some toothpaste to cool down the pain.

It doesn't work at all.

Luciky.i managed to finish the cooking session.

huu...

My lunch was porridge.

Put some hot dogs,crab cakes, carrots,toufus and an egg into it.

Although the taste was not tasty like others foods.

I enjoyed it very much.

I love to eat so i grab some fruits and make a salad.

I am always eating in the whole day.

I am regret too.

But the action controlled my mind.

Wish to go out and have a fresh breathe.

When i can travel alone without any burden and trouble?

The problems make me headache and i seriously need some relaxation.

Could someone brings me beyond here?

I need a hug.a real hug.

It is time to do some preparation for my tuition class tonight.

Bye^___________^

Suffer in sick

I am having a sick now.

It is so suffering and i couldn't talk to people with my normal voice.

The throat is just like burning on a fire.

I can feel that my body tempreture is getting higher.

I am so lonely...

My family went for a dinner.

They were left me alone here.

I need caring from the people who i care of.

I need some rest.

I am so tiring now...

The only way i can do is hugging my teddy and say good night to him.

night to everyone.

I hate this kind of feeling.

I am so regret.

Hello. It seems like i never been here to upload my blogger recently.

Sincerely,i was wasting my life in most of the time.

I have no idea what is going on with me.

Getting hot temper and always disobey daddy and mummys' advices.

I would like to say.I am so sorry.

My action let you down and i knew that i cannot change your mind on me even I be back to a good girl right?

I met some problem which are regarding to my personality.

I am so pissed off.

My face started to grow a lot of pimples.

The main reason is I lack of sleep.

Life is too young in the stage of teen.

I am really wish to get back into my studies life.

I don't want to stay in the realistic world.

It is so falsity for me.

November was coming,

i was wondering what new hair style is suitable for me to transfrom myself when 20 years old?

haha.

Uncertain.I got no money just because i get used on shopping?

Trying to change my life style now.

No liquor.No more to be a night owl.

Exercise more.Be more mature are the right ways.

I am really sorry to those who care on me.

Night.to everyone.

❤

A sport day for myself.

Well,i am getting anticipation in writing my blog.

Maybe this is the only way to express my mixed feeling as i survive in this realistic's world.

Today,i was repeated the same life as usual.

Went to work and came back home did some house work.

Except for one thing,I went for a sport!

Haha.

After finished all of my duty.

I was bringing my lovely gold gold for a jog.

She was so naughty because she always licks here and there.

She make me headache,but luckily she is always by myside.

When i was moody.i used to put all the temper to her.

I knew sometime she was so innocent but in the end i treated her nicely with her favorite snacks.

Ops....How bad was I isn't?

I ran four round in the small garden which located nearby my house.

During the exercising,I was wondering that "can i get some pictures to beautify my blog?"

Hmm..I will try my best in next time.

I love swimming.But i just couldn't be brave to face my problem.

There are some rashes over my body.

It is so ugly if i wear a swimming suit right?

How to get rid of this?

Still thinking out the solution.

I dont want to become a less confident girl although i always been like that.

Fairy fairy.could you please show your kindness ?

Wish all of my friends and family have a sweet dream tonight.

Dar i always have in mind of you.

Night to you too ❤

Went for a fantastic meal

He was coming back here last weekend to celebrate his mummy birthday.

Before he going back,we went for a lunch.

Sunday,a sunny day for me and him when we were on the way to permas.

The location is at permas.【二重丸】but unfortunately.

I cannot pronoun it's english name properly.

pity sad for me.haha..

This is my first time comprehend the procedure of uploading a picture.

well.i will arrange my pictures nicely for my next diary.

lolx...


Here you go..a glass of fresh watermelon juice for us to cool down the hotness in our body.

Jb is getting warmer and i wish to have a swim in the evening if i get the chance.




It was the appetizer on that day.fried toufu with tasty sause as topping.

Most of the toufu were eaten by me.






Ops.hope you all dont mind because i used to post some ugly picture on the blog to express my feeling.

I just went for a hair treatment because my hair lost with huge amount recently..
started to worry about my hair.







Dar Dar was sitting besides me and i couldn't capture him with perfect angle because the sunlight block my camera sight.

We were ordered some dishes which are califonia sushi,softcrab sushi,inari,mocha ice cream and so on.

After our lunch,he send me to work.

and straight away drove back to nilai with his friends.

We were been apart one month as his study over there and i work at here.

He is still remaining the same look and way too.

Thanks dar,see you again after you finish your diploma.

Must work hard and dont be lazy yaz.

^_________________________________^

❤

tata everyone.

It is all about life.

Hello.Good morning to all of you.

I would like to say:'It's really tiring throughout this weekend."

I keep repeating the same movement in my life.

working.eating.driving.teaching. non-stop.

What does the life is?

I can't wait to continue my study from now.

As life keep going on.

I am still lost my mind and stuck in dilemma.

Where should i go and what should i study?

I am not a wise girl and yet i wish to strive at least what i can get.

forget about it.

My dar was back during yesterday.

He brought me to have dinner with his parents last night.

After that,we were watched a movie called "Others Guys."

Well...

I could said:It was really a Terrible movie!

haha...no choice.

I am the one who lazy to press button of camera.

I lost the chance to capture very single detail and post it through the blogger.

I will be smart next time and business my blogger nicely.

give me some time pls.

^_________^

i really feel relax while i was writing a blog.

Every burden was released.

Today going to be a nice day too~
well...

have to go now.

Wish everyone have a wonderful day with your love ones.
muackz.

❤See you.