小.伤口

午夜时分 睡眼惺忪的我选择不睡觉 赖在桌子上 开始对你 分享 最近的点点滴滴 呼 其实我的生活还蛮糜烂的 真的有点搞不清楚头绪 之前安排一系列的活动 也因为 懒惰的关系而 延误了 所以呢 为了自己赚取生活费 去打工了 其实身为一名推销员 不仅需要的是口才 更加需要的是 勇气 而我 学习收获了很多 对我来说 或许接触陌生人 和他们分享是一件很困难的事 本人觉得自己是一个很慢热的人 我不喜欢嘈杂 我喜欢独自躲在角落 自己思考 我有我的想法 可是我知道 这样的我 不是我自己 =(

我喜欢观察 喜欢揣测

或许想法和别人的不相同

可能对我感到陌生的朋友 不了解我

其实我 只不过把我自己很真诚的和你们交朋友

这就是我 啊拉蕾

当你望着相同的人事物

会不会也有一位和你相同的人

正在想着你心里的疑惑呢？

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自信

是自己散发出来的 源自于自己

但是 在其他人眼中的我

缺乏自信 而显得渺小 灰暗

我知道 我也没有十全十美

只是希望自己可以活在当下

每一天都活得自信十足

因为我相信 这个世界

会有凋零的一天

最近有点小懒惰 都不动脑筋以英文写日志

开始了我的日记生涯

『20岁的蜕变』

是我为自己取得书名

这些密密麻麻的文字对我来说

是人生的转变

陪伴我走过失落 开心 的旅程

谢谢你 文字

你是我最衷心的 朋友 我学会了 微笑带过一切

如果别人伤害了你 请你对他微笑

因为这表示 这根本不算什么

我是坚强的 我自己=)

晚安 眼睛

你是我的灵魂

如果有一天 我失去了你

这将会是我一辈子 最后悔的事

傻 的可以

有些话 是你永远都无法宣泄 只能自己默默倾听的

有些事 是你永远抹不去回忆 只能自己默默收藏的

有些人 是你这一辈子很憎恨 却又不敢说出口的人




那一年 你抛弃了我

我觉得自己 没有了你 会过得很好


的确 我断断续续的寻找下一段恋情

因为跌倒的很重

我爬不起来 每当想你的时候


只能告诉自己 你必须忍 不能够打扰他的生活


其实 我很后悔

当初为什么离开你

还记得

我的璇和我说过

他就像是一块过期的巧克力

你咬下去 苦涩 无甜味 其实没必要收藏

可是你觉得浪费 所以还是不舍得把它遗弃


没错 他不适合我

这点我明白

往往很愚蠢的以为 我们还会有未来


其实在我的生活一切正常 渐渐恢复的时候

因为一次邂逅 我遇见到了他


所有封闭的回忆 都历历在目

可是 想再去兑现

距离 是一个很可怕的阻碍




远远的 让我无法了解

其实 已经画上休止符


谢谢你 让我学习到了很多 也成长了不少

谢谢你 曾经陪伴我度过每一个哭泣的夜

真的 很谢谢你


长大了 唯有放下以前

才能够继续向前看齐

唯有试着对社会残忍

才能够朝着自己未来前进



再见了 一直被视为一切的你

也感激一直在身旁的家人 朋友 和小熊的主人

谢谢你们的体谅

请给我一些时间

走出回忆

曾经想过的愚蠢行为

真的傻 的可以

Dreams.

Hi.nice to meet you again.

Little blogger.i got a lot of transaction would like to share with you in the moment.

It's hardly to describe.

the emotional in my heart.

Recently,We went for Jay chou concert at Stadium Bukit Jalil on the day of 5th,March.

There were very crowded and i didn't even watched Mr Jay Chou properly.

But through the screen,He is really got talent in Music.

=) I will keep supporting him as long as he is still on the way of his journey of music.





Next event.

which is My brother wedding.

There were a lot of working in preparing the wedding.

And We did spent time on the background drawing.

But we managed to finish it on time=)

How nice.

But i think another ideas after i started to paint the first drawing in the middle of the way.

Heartache+headache.

so decided to finish the first idea in the end.

I hope that brother would like the background .

then i got nothing to worry.

Every incident which happened before was just a dream, for me.

A strong feeling of sadness comes up in my mind.

Honestly,

people always treats nicely to whom treats badly to them.

I am the one of the example.

Wind can't blow those of the unhappy air away.

How can I do?

There is only one thing.

keep walking and be strong.


Goodbye.and Take care....

这次我是真的 懂了

The time is around 12.30 midnight.

I feel so relax after taken a bathe.

Sitting in front of laptop and starting to express the life that i spend today.

Well.There is nothing special in my everyday's life.

I went to Singapore not long ago.

Walked around in the city which is so unfamiliar for me.

And...

I am wondering how could i get use in the new environment?

=( A lot of worriment cames up my mind all at once.

Every procedure is going on smoothly.

My medical report shown my body function normally.

and I am busying with my brother's wedding.

Sound exciting isn't it.?

I hope that i could finish the background as soon as possible.

And improve myself in every article.

=)All the best.Lenice.

A deep breath in and out from my mouth.

I should learn how to give and take whenever what the matter is happen to me.

Cry cannot resolve problems.

Wipe your tears.

Take in a deep breath.

make the decision directly.

be strong.be strong and independent.

This is what i should told myself.


No one could be with you forever.

Selfishness is the characteristic that own in every Human Being.

The tendency of without trainning which cannot be eliminate by everyone of you.

try to be realism in the way you deal with things.

This is what i learned from the world.

Good night.The world.

Goodbye.My tears.
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每一个小宝宝 从出生的那一刻

就被上天给予了一份本性

他们都是善良的孩子们

日子一天一天过去了

善良的孩子们接触到了成长过程中

不能避免的威胁

他们变得叛逆 残酷 邪恶

这些心态 使他们忘记了当初善良的本性

直到 领悟了 做了真正后悔的事

他们回头了 也忏悔了

可是 发生的事 怎么都弥补不了

时间可以淡忘他们的恶性

但是却怎样都不能淡忘那份一直隐藏在内心的

挣扎



如果这个世界可以重来好几遍

你还会想去挽回对你以前后悔的事情吗




后悔 是一个名词 而
弥补 是一个动词

Started to love myself.

现在是凌晨3.22分

觉得有些疲倦了 所以以华文来代劳吧

兔年一转眼就要来到尾声了

其实心里有些许不舍

因为并没有做些什么有意义的事情

来为这一年所努力



我觉得这一年里

我的作风真的改变很多


把原本那个循规蹈矩的蕾儿

变成了深不可测的我

对自己感到有些惊慌失措

连我都不知道应该怎么解决


爱自己 做自己想要完成的事

或许对每一个人来说

很简单

可是

倒映在我身上的

却是痛苦 和辛酸


我承认 我是悲观主义者

总是先往坏的方面想


可是 每个人都有自己拟定的步伐丫

所以不管别人怎么想

我还是会继续这样子走下去


这是在这一年里 自己对自己立的誓约

I Love Myself.

Don't get hurt by anyone anymore.

If accidentally the unconsious situation happened.

I would cuel myself and face bravely to everyone of you.




星星之所以那么闪烁

是因为 它们总是默默的奉献

就算没有被给予赞美

它们还是非常勤劳的 执行各自的任务

我们也应该秉持这样的态度

面对任何事


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大年初二 那晚

我们来到了云顶高原

非常喜欢那里的气候

所以大家都涌到那里

过年的气氛 真的很好

天气寒冷 我点了一份面线来吃

虽然味道普通 可是心里暖暖的感觉真好

大年初四

到朋友家 拜年

聚一聚 很疲倦 不过很开心

晚安 世界

困了 =)

其实思念 也是一种习惯

Wonder is just a illusion.

First of all.
Here comes with my warmest regard to my blog.

It is quite difficult for me to put some idea on my blog.

As i never stepped out since few weeks ago.

Honestly.

sitting at home is actually another way to let me cooling down my emotion.

and i did managed to handle my household duties at the same time.

I should feel happy because i helped my mother to release some burdens.

=)

Give a big clap to myself.

Cheer and good jod.Lenice.


Actually.I feel very inferior whenever i stand in front of public.

Maybe i lose connection with all my friends,

and there is lack of encouragement for myself recently.

I need a deep breathe.

and escape from here.

run far far away to have a peace relaxation.

I want to loud out that' I am so stress' to blue sky and ocean.

and walk around the sand of beach.

=(

Unfortunately.

It is just a illusion.

nobody could read your mind.

Only myself could make decision in everything.

I must improve myself to be a better girl.

A mature thinking girl.

A cheerful girl.


Chinese new year is coming soon.

My only wish is 'Let those persons whom i loves achieve what they wish to receive'

There were a lot of think happened come and after.

Everyone was tired.

I am hoping that everything will go through smoothly in the coming future.

Please bless my family.

I am begging you.
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其实 部落格用华文来表达的话

真的是一个很棒的选择

可惜 大家都希望自己的英文能够再进步一些些

唯有不断的逼自己进步

你才会有得到期许的一天

我们每个人

都有自己的习性

天生扮演着不同的角色

上天给予你什么

你只能够用后天的努力

好让自己在这个社会里

有生存的空间

就算是独角戏

也要演到最后一刻

只要自己觉得已经尽力了

就没有遗憾了

所以 我把自己的本分做好

就不应该期待 奢望任何

美好的事发生在我身上了吧

自信是靠不断的打压造就出来的

我是否也该静下心来

给自己进步的空间呢？

晚安 世界

Gain and Lost in the same way.

Hey.my blog.

It is nice to see you again.

Well,you know that i am a lazy girl and seldom update myself.

Just because


I don't really expert in express myself in the blog.

Hope you don't mind.

How a lazy master to you.=)



I only could said that as time goes by,

every unlucky incident did happened to me one and after.


The First incident.

The driver reversed his car and hit my car accidentally.

Meanwhile.He refused to pay me with unpolite attitude.

This is my first time being such a bad luck in my driving life.





The second incident.

I had been penalty by trafic police because i overspeed.

I have to admit that

everything is my fault.

Maybe heaven wanted to punish me just because i am bad?


Full of doubts.








I would like to thanks to my family because of supportive from you all.

I could live happy ever after with you guys.

Thanks everyone whom giving me a great help during my crisis time.


I knew that,

We cannot be with us forever.

I was happy because i found you all with my true heart before.


No matter how is happen in the end.

I must be strong.

Lenice.

Good night.

=0 Everyone.
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今天开始有了想用华语更明确的表达我自己的念头

虽然这个部落格已经有点不健全

但是我还是会尽力保护它

爱惜它

因为他是我的知心

人家说

遗憾是一种美

这句话 感触很深 体会的人明白它背后的故事


冰淇淋融化了

如果再把它凝固起来

也已经回不去了

我和你 很要好

彼此用心对待

只要知道这个 我已经很足够了

不管未来你会在哪里

我衷心的祝福你